noora blaming her for not telling her about william when all of the girls knew, not just sana
having to physically pull her brother off of mahdi so neither would get hurt
seeing that someone hurt isak which meant that the fight between the balloon squad and the boys was probably over what happened with mikael and even, a long-time friend of hers
having to deal with that plus knowing even’s history and realizing the implications of that friend for even’s mental health and isak’s physical health
knowing that whatever happened, happened due to a misunderstanding that she was busy with social stuff to help mediate and feeling overwhelmingly guilty for something she had no control over and for just having a life outside of what her family expects
washing isak’s blood off of her hands knowing that either her brother, her crush, or her long-time family friends caused, no matter who started the fight
hearing people assume that all muslim boys are homophobic and anti-norwegian culture to the point that they would start throwing punches
hearing people call her brother crazy and using how elias tried to save sana from her parents for the party she agreed to as evidence against elias’ sanity and feeling overwhelmingly guilty for that
hearing people say she was a bad representative for her religion for events that are out of her control when she is a seventeen year old girl who is true to her faith in every way possible and is just trying to have friends and be “normal” while being herself and being seen as different by everyone
feeling guilty for misrepresenting her religion when she hasn’t
dealing with the guilt from the text from her mother when she said she should have trusted sana and ten minutes later, elias is in a fistfight and she’s washing blood off her hands while hearing people say that she will never fit into a culture she tries so hard to hold onto while not losing her faith and her roots
hearing the girls say that she was off the bus that her friends put her in charge of initially by asking her to fix all their problems and realizing that everyone lied to her including her friends
hearing her friends spread untrue rumors about her and her family
realizing that vilde has been going behind her back time and time again when sana has given her nothing but chances
being called insane by association to her brother
and after all of that seeing one of her closest friends and her crush going at it just a week after yousef and sana’s Moment
seeing one of her closest friends kiss her crush just after sana had come to accept yousef’s way of faith and after she believed she had a chance with him, even after all the back and forth with her feelings
all of this only moment after everyone was happy and singing together under the umbrella of even’s struggle turned to joy
thinking all of the happiness was too good to last, yousef,
thinking all of this was her fault for inviting the balloon squad to syng
i will defend sana bakkoush with my life. she has been through ENOUGH.
I also appreciate the realistic side. because these things happen. Not everybody is perfect. life is not perfect. God has written that in the Quran. He said that I will send you tests to see if you will remember me during those times. Will you follow the straight path? or will you not?
